| a little help from my friends |
[Jun. 28th, 2006|11:19 pm] |
I don't know if I should be writing this
Or if I can comprehend what I am about to write
you see, the last week has been a blur
and the last two nights have been the most minimal of sleep
Last night = finger body writing with bubu til the early hours
mon night = eh, yer
i can't digest information at the moment
I've been fitted for a suit
danced til I dropped
drank like a muthafarker
sucked face like a vacuum
but I feel I've been letting people down
and that they've been letting me down
I can't be everywhere at once
and my organisational skills seem to faulter with drowsiness
I'm always supposed to be somewhere, and somewhere else
but it's hard to decide where to go
especially with a scatterbrain and a heart in a mess
but don't fret
there's always love
if you try to work it out with me, I'll try to work it out with you
just don't push me over
or expect me to make the moves
because for once i want to put myself first
it's not that I'm arrogant
just, yeah, my life is about to take off dramatically
with a little help from my friends
no, a lot of help from my friends
and that means you
all of you
Celene
Sean
Nicole
Snuff
Li
Sophia
Jay
Joel
Larali
(assuming you're the only one's that might actually read this)
don't bail on me now
come along for the ride
but most of all I'm sorry if I fuck you around
it's non intentional
we can sort this out
so there's not long now
something like 12 days
til it begins
it's going to be hard
but it's going to work
if you help me when I ask for it
i'm going to get some sleep now
and hope that nothing wakes me up in the morning
p.s. this is the last public post I'm going to have
so if you're a fucking weirdo stalker
or someone who I dislike intensely
fuck off
otherwise write me a message and get me to add you
Love to all |
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| this is the scene |
[May. 30th, 2006|12:30 pm] |
hey kids,
no real reason for blogging.
jammed with Oxygen Thief yesterday, so much fun.
As Celene says, we are definately a live band...
But I'm trying to give 3 bands their best start:
Oxygen Thief
Nanospider
And to do so, they need gigs...
So I've become a promoter for Click Click's
SO USE LOGAN'S LIST AT CLICK CLICK'S FOR DISCOUNT ENTRY
shameless promotion, I know.
But I figure, I become friendly with the owners
They give us gigs
And I get free entry and drinks....
haha.
let's see how this goes.
In related news, how do I convince the uni to give me a $1200 student loan?
I want a new keyboard and mike
But I don't think the uni wants me to have it...
LOGAN'S LIST AT CLICK CLICK
yeah, shameless.
chunks of love and happiness to all. |
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| I'm in love with your brother |
[May. 23rd, 2006|03:42 pm] |
I'm in love with your brother.
Bought some albums today...
Kings of Leon
Gnarles Barkley
The Knife
I'm in love with the knife at the moment.
You know them, they sing 'Heartbeats' and 'You take my breath away'.
But there's this one song
"pass this on"
that's been in my head for ages and now I can listen to it over and over..
"I'm in love with your brother
what's his name?
I thought I'd come by to see him again...
Has he mentioned my age, love?
Or is he more into young girls with dyed black hair?
You'll pass this on, won't you?"
The film clip is oddly surreal as well.
The guy from the band dresses up in drag and sings in some little lodge filled with random people. He keeps on trying to dance with this young guy. The tune just melts my heart, I love it.
Also, I wandered into Allans and thought it fun to annoy the sales staff.
So I've decided on this beautiful Roland keyboard, which I can supposedly haggle down to just 900 bux. Also found a recording mike which I can get for 450 or so...
So now, I save money...
I need it by July
This i can do
If I don't drink
And don't smoke
And don't eat out
And don't splurge anymore
And definately no drugs... |
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| i feel like a newborn |
[May. 21st, 2006|11:26 pm] |
So big things been happening...
I feel like my personalty is developing at 1000 miles a minute.
I've just realised a lot more about what I want out of life.
Creating an output to the world is the most productive thing you can ever do.
My uni degree isn't doing this.
Give me a camera
Give me a dv cam
Give me a microphone
Give me a pen
Give me a brush
Give me a gun....
I need to create, and I want to spend as much of my life as possible doing this.
I've entered a zone where everything is influencing me greatly.
I hear music deep inside.
I see things all the way through.
I understand and love my friends so much more these days.
Before you ask, no, I'm not drunk...
And what would a journal entry be without love interests?
I want someone crazy, exciting, spontaneous, musical, artistic, everything I want to be.
And I'm so fucking excited at the moment,
I've met someone who could be all these things.
And he just messaged me 5 minutes ago.
all the world is all I am
Chunky love to all...
p.s. celene, i am having a problem. the music i've been writing has been too happy as of late. I think I need to be put on a strict diet of radiohead, old muse and portishead. sound good? and give me your damn book! |
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| finally |
[May. 19th, 2006|10:45 pm] |
all my assignments for the semester are finished, I am semi-free.
So big night tomorrow night, dinner and drinks and then off to a big night.
So yeah, it's weird how boys come into my life in groups, never singularly, weird.
But I aint rushing nothing, thinking about nothing, too much else on.
Oxygen Thief's demo got sent out to a few places, hopefully some gigs coming.
In july I am recording an album for my own band, mucho excited.
Holidays maximum:
A week in Bambra with highschool chums going on a red wine bender and sitting by a bonfire.
Some time up at Celene's farm with whoever but yeah yeah will be cool.
Splendour in the Grass roadtrip, wanting to travel down the coast, hopefull stop by sydney as there is someone there i really want to see.
Then my uncle's 50th in Adelaide, it will be big and drunken and my cousins are awesome.
I'm sure I could vent about something here but I'm really too tired at the moment.
But big chunks of family issues, odd shaped chunks of boys, and shiny chunks of ambitions.
Love to all.
XXX Logan
Ps. I need the following in July:
Female singer who can rap
Trumpet player
Violin player
Flute player
I already got the rest sorted... |
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| I lost you in the rear-view |
[Apr. 28th, 2006|01:15 am] |
Feeling great about life for the first time in a long while...
Not saying much about how or why, but something just clicked
and now everything is falling into place.
And just as optimism hit its peak today,
something came in the mail,
something I've wanted for many years now,
something that symbolises everything I want from life.
I just opened the package about 10 minutes ago.
I don't believe it finally came...
There is everything to live for.
Nothing's gonna stop me.
(I was going to write a detailed explanation of everything here,
but I like knowing it is all mine, just for once) |
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| people equals shit |
[Apr. 20th, 2006|03:33 pm] |
I'm heading into a downward spiral of solitary antisocialism. Started a couple months ago and it's getting worse. I can't deal with people in public unless im with my real friends. I can't deal with people who aren't my real friends. But I'm not depressed or anything, just misguided or confused or living in a dream like state or something. I love my friends, they are wonderful. My party was awesome because all my bestest buddies from high school were there aswell as a lot of new friends who have made my move to the city a warm, inviting experience. Now for some randomness which we all love:
- Leigh and I stole 10kg of potatoes and scattered them throughout south lawn sunday night. She was the first friend who took me out and showed me the city when I moved up here. You rock forever. ps. I love the cd you gave me! XXX
- Heidi is my old bathwater/heater/lover/brother/sister/muse and the best friend who came into my life when I needed her the most. I would most likely have run off the tracks last year were it not for her. She's gonna be here in an hour!!!!
- Celene, you are fantastic. You've enocuraged me to realise my artistic potential and motivated me to get off my arse and do something about my love of music and film. You are also going to be here in an hour (if you don't fall asleep on the tram again)!!!!
Yeah, everybody else, you know who you are and that I love you or something. These 3 popped into my head right now... Go Joel and Naomi! I love you two soooo much!!!! Hope family situation is going alright. Talk soon XXXX
Uh, I'm getting distracted, a lot on my mind lately. Going out to comfy chair tonight.. then off to next for emo emo drunk. haha, going to be great.
I'm saving up for a mike for recording music and such. My band project is going to be fun. I need to fucking start filming my short, argh, this is purely my fault, as I was scared of the camera. I've spent some quality time with Lars von Stichface (my camera) and we are comfortable with each other now... I can push all his buttons in the right way now, oh yeah...
I think I need to eat something before my brain falls out...
Celene just smsed me saying she might be a tid bit late, bah. I need to wash my skinnies as they got some random stain on them at my party, god knows what it is. Hrmm, this post was going to be about how much people suck but I got off topic didn't I? Oh I'll quickly make up for it here.... people equals shit... A few people I've known have been two-faced/fucked up lately, including country girls who pushed over their first friends they made here, women you support, but barely know, who turn around and blame all their suicidal tendencies on you, boys who think their whole life is about being gay, and refuse to accept that hetero people exist in this world, who for the greater part, are more important and productive then people who focus on themselves. These comments are aimed at people but shall remain nameless as they are in the witness protection unit, hahaha. Yer, I needed to vent publically so suffer if you actually read all that.
Peace out and share the love kiddies. |
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| killing time before I go out |
[Apr. 1st, 2006|07:40 pm] |
It's a saturday night and I gotta kill some time before I head out for the night so I'm going to ramble on about nothing because you love it. Because my brain hurts from doing japanese homework, this blog is going to come out in randomized sentences. Enjoy!
I cut the backs out of my chucks so I don't bleed
I played the synthesizer for a song in the band so I can pretend I'm the hot guy from The Unicorns
The government now gives me money
My storyboard is almost done, first shooting to be done just before my bday party starts
I'm acting in my short now, as well as writing, directing, filming, making music for, and producing it
I invited too many people to my party, haha, its gonna be fun
My toe-nails are black, how emu of me
I'm planning to get my hair cut short at the back soon
I want to go to India these summer holidays, or some asian country where there are cheap lobsters
I've started jogging again, hotness here I return
The band's demo is almost complete, gigs to follow, I expect attendance from all
I've been writing a lot of songs lately for my project, very different stuff, exciting
I need to brush my teeth, eew
I bought the Tori video collection, but I'm upset as it is missing 3 clips, inc. strange little girls
I'm apathetic towards boys but the dramatic saga still continues even if I don't care
I'm going to a club tonight where they are gonna play the new YYY's album, pure hotness
I need to get ready now and brush my yucky teeth and find something tryhard and indie to wear
I need to tell you all I love you, aaaw, does that warm you? |
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| let go |
[Feb. 28th, 2006|09:43 pm] |
Teenage angsty rant - feel free to ignore if you are anybody
Finished day two of third year uni. I'm getting disappointed with what I'm studying. From the material, to the lecturers, to the students. I've already decided to be the loner in the back of a couple of subjects which no-one I know is taking with me. Engineers are awful. I was sitting up the back for engineering management and everybody was acting like the tossers they are. Guys were throwing paper planes around the room, girls were reading glam magazines. Then this chick came in at the start and gave a talk about an anti-racism rally or something, to which all the guys in the room started swearing aloud at her and making inappropriate comments at her. I was kinda disgusted being there. Then the lecture started. Snore. 6 words a minute. 6 boring words a minute. Straight after class I changed one of my lab times from 9am tuesday, to 2pm tuesday, so it clashes with the lecture so I don't go to it. Environmental engineering basics seems slightly more interesting as Graham Moore is teaching it and he is a cool old tree-hugger that he is. Geomorphology seems fun as it is all about how landscapes are formed and stuff, and there are arts students in it so I can have a good old perve. Jap is jap. But all in all, I haven't gotten into the swing of things yet.
I need something to inspire me and make me productive. This is why my film and the band are my lifeblood at the moment. I have great faith in both of them. I just don't want to be an engineer at the moment. Uh uh, happy news? Nope. I'm not famous yet, or with anyone hot, or drunk. I'm drinking less kiddies, and eating healthier, starting exercise up again. Woo. That'll hopefully give me some much needed energy.
Hey Celene, atleast I've got the teenage angst our band loves so dearly, hehe. Did you notice the songs we wrote are really angsty and not happy? ie. 'my life and nothing to show'. It's excellent. Hugs and kisses to all you kiddies. |
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| Two degrees |
[Feb. 23rd, 2006|01:59 am] |
Fucking shit fuck to you all.
Im drunk, yes, like I always am when I write these things.
But fuck you all.
I hate this 'two' degrees of seperation. We all know someone else, it all locks into each other. You would think, living in a city this sized that you can escape the fact that everyone knows each other. Come on, we're not a country bumpking fucking town.
Care to exemplify?
Yes Logan, do go on...
I shall use tonight as a simple example... So, I was at this new pub-gay-awful-pub opening thingy-ma-bob, and my German-ex was working behind the bar, so naturally I had to try to ignore him and not get him to serve me, even though I stopped talking to him, but still spent half the night talking about him. God he is hot. Yeah, that was a start. Got drunk, as you do, then decided this guy sitting at the bar by himself was soooo hot, looked like a young emo version of rufus wainwright. Anyway, my friends decided to talk to him, and forced me to talk to him. Yeah, so he is awesome and cool and shit and swapped numbers and I'm seeing him tomorrow and shit, but I found out he is J's ex. Oh no. That's just not cricket. I love J and don't want to hurt him. But..... now... (new paragraph to signify stuff...)
Yeah, so on my-space there is this guy I am really interested in. But J found this guy through my myspace and added him to his list. So I'm shocked and appauled and thinking the worst. And I'm drunk, did I mention that? Yeah, so I'm soo Donnie Darko and shit and scared of dying alone, and hate the way that my potential love lifes have and can be fucked up with.
I'm scared.
I just want someone so bad.
There's someone behind this alcoholic front.
I have soo much love to give. |
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| stones are locking up my knees |
[Feb. 14th, 2006|10:39 am] |
I want you to know that this year is mine.
I want you to know, I'm getting may way this time,
I want you to know, you better not get in my way.
I want to destroy you.
I want to make this city mine.
And it will be...
Stand in my way, and I will hurt you.
2 years and 10 months before I leave this city forever. |
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| down in the core |
[Jan. 24th, 2006|11:51 pm] |
Haven't posted anything of coherent sense lately, but still it made sense to some.
Just finished the 1st day of my 10 day break from department store hell, was a good start. I had band practice with the allmighty celene and her brother. Turned out really well, they played their funky punk-rock sounds while I layered some contrasting melodic piano chords and fingerstyle guitar patterns over the top. We never thought that powerchords and piano could sound so good together, we're sort of creating a new style of music as we go along. I'm loving being part of the band, going to lead to good and chunky things.
I then headed straight to Gen's house for dinner and drinks. We later had a jam while she played her blues/folk on the guitar and I joined in on the african drums, was muchly fun. Gen has even lent me the drums to practice on, yay! Was rather funny taking the tram home with this giant african drum under my arm. Hopefully going to be joining a band with Gen and sending some demos off which we should be recording next week. Niceness.
See, I'm already making a change in my life to be more productively creative, turning out well. Finalising my film script with the great Joeleo next week. Also got great plans for 2 awesome linoprints to make. Need to talk to Leigh sometime about getting this alt-rock band off the ground while at the same time I want to start working on this solo/collaborative music project of mine. Starting to fill that void inside me. Feels damn good.
Australia day party on Thurs, BDO on Sunday + afterparty, lots of things to look foward too.
Hope the world has been treating you all kindly. |
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| i was never your twin |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|10:57 pm] |
don't forget
I kept a lot from you
I know you're reading this
that means you're shallow too |
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| oil rig |
[Jan. 11th, 2006|10:55 pm] |
salt to sand
all the way through
my oil burning skin
just like you
so you're giving in 100 men
and he knew some of them
for what it mattered
takes it with him
could've been me
water filled lungs
his deep blue sea |
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| pretty good year |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|07:17 pm] |
So it came without warning, a new year.
Scary stuff kids.
This new years was different to most for me. I usually spend those hours leading up to midnight looking back at what happened during the year, what was important to me, how I changed, blah blah blah. But for the first time ever, I spent those hours thinking about where I'm going to be going in the new year, what I'm going to be doing and how I want to change myself. Was rather optimistic and progressive of me I thought. That beautiful sense of forboding adventure isn't going to wear off anytime soon. 'And what about those resolutions?' I hear you scream. Well, in keeping to my approach of using catchy resolutions, this year I'm using the wise words of ms. Amos... naturally.
give me life
give me pain
give me myself again
Which leads me on to why I want myself again, the person I used to be. I'm finally thinking about the life I led last year, and how it was a year about being someone I wasn't, a year of experiences that altered me. I had jumped into a dark place that was constantly cooling, and it was there that so much of myself slip-slided out of my body. A year I seriously neglected my spirituality and became hollow and feelingless. A year my creativity died. A year I lost a love and spent so much time trying to find a replacement to no avail, the consequences of my search destroyed the remaining part of my childhood and innocence which can never be given back to me. It wasn't pretty, I did some very stupid things and put myself in numerous unsafe situations. But it wasn't all bad, I've learnt from all these experiences and shall now change to better myself, and bring back a lot of the person I used to be once. I made some of the greatest of friends this year and formed stronger bonds with the old. So many memories of pure happiness with these people that shall stay with me forever.
Pretty hot and heavy, eh?
Hope this new year brings chunks of excitement and adventure to you all. |
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| do the happy dance |
[Dec. 9th, 2005|01:46 am] |
so yeah, I've done better than I deserved:
Creative Writing 1 079 H2A
Advanced Japanese B 069 H3
Geomechanics 1 071 H2B
Eng Analysis A 068 H3
Chemistry A 072 H2B
I ate way too much Indian food last night. |
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| loving in the suburbs |
[Nov. 29th, 2005|02:33 pm] |
It takes so little to lie.
It takes so much to love.
It scares me how it's offered to me so freely, and for this I am eternally thankful to so many people.
It is 2am. |
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| all the world is all I am |
[Nov. 29th, 2005|12:39 pm] |
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| | white stripes - dead leaves and the dirty ground | ] |
Hey hey kids,
So I'm finally free at last, got a whole big holidays ahead of me to do so much.
Goals for the end of holidays:
- get exhibited in an inner-city art gallery (rural one's are usually lame)
- write, film, and edit a short film
- write and record atleast three songs
- make enough money to be classed as independent and go on youth allowance
- make my house cluttered to the brim with photos and art
- get drunk and party at every opportunity available
So I've got myself 3 months to be doing this in.
My house-warming/eox party on saturday night went very well, nobody munted, only a few tears, most of my friends came, and only one neighbour got pissed off who sucks anyway. Lots of fun. I'll try and stick some photos up here when I can be bothered.
Sunday night had a sleep over with the anthro crew out near eltham somewhere. I don't think I've had so much fun and laughed so hard in a while; pillow fights, disney movies, fairy bread and talking shit 'til five in the morning. Demon llama!
Out at public bar last night, got extremely drunk as you do on one dollar pots. Michelangelo and the Black Sea Gentlement at the Spiegeltent tonight. Gotta love gypsy music in a crazy circus tent. Gonna be good.
Off to eat and make music now.
Share the love... |
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| all my lovers hate me |
[Nov. 20th, 2005|12:43 am] |
| [ | music |
| | rufus wainwright - an old whore's diet | ] |
Make the studying go away.
I've got 3 exams this week then I'm finally on holidays!
Working Friday night,
My party Saturday night,
Jen's house Sunday lunch-night,
Myer Chrissy party Monday night,
then after that there will be shopping with Heidi and a video marathon at my house, going out Thursday night to Smith st. Party party party.
Last Tuesday was Gen's birthday, I love her new house. Just so happy her and her girl are all settled in. Was a good night, nice to just sit back outside and talk. Kate can cook up a storm.
Friday night was Tegan and Ash's birthday party at Tegan's place in Brunswick. Crazy crazy fun party. Lots of running around and acting spastic as I do. I drank too much and just past midnight I passed out and was carried down two flights of stairs into a bed by my friends. Thanks to Lee and Dave for managing to carry a six foot something lanky man down all those stairs with such humour. Woke up around 4am fresh as a daisy, by which time Snuff was there. Got some foodage and cooked up lots of bacon and eggs for everyone. After all that, needless to say I was pretty dead for my 9 hour shift that day.
Dad's birthday tonight, going back home to see him at some point today.
What's with all the birthdays? |
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| when chickens get a taste of your meat |
[Nov. 5th, 2005|02:32 am] |
One of those days again, what annoys me is that they come about too often. Hell, I wasn't even drinking when it happened this time. I'm trying to grow enough will-power to stop it coming on.
My head hurts as I've been on the computer for a while trying to finish of my 3000 word creative arts folio. I'm quite happy with how it is turning out.
I need to get the washing off the line.
Then after that I'm taking a midnight stroll through the park.
Anybody care to join? |
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